Dear Lt Kelley
24 May 2012 3 Comments
in Whining
Did you know that it’s been eight years since I’ve seen you? That seems really stupid. I always like to think I’m a whirlwindy kind of spontaneous person who will just run off and do things on a whim, but I’m not. I am a person who would rather stay home and watch Battlestar Galactica and eat pie. Except when you’re around. Then I want to go out and accidentally get caught in tornadoes and find restaurants in the middle of the woods and get silly drunk and sing karaoke. I do not know how you have the energy to be as insane as you are and also have a regular life. Ugh, I miss you.
Whenever we talk, you have a million new things going on, but my life is pretty much the same. I write and go to school and hang out with my boyfriend and my friend Pickle and walk my dog and sometimes I graduate and sometimes I go to Maine or Arizona or Washington to see my family. That’s what I’ve been doing for eight years. When we were at Fort Campbell together, my life was a total drama trainwreck, and also I was really not myself the entire time I was in the military, so I always wonder if you would still be friends with me now. I think you would because I haven’t fundamentally changed, I’m just boring and not crazy. I don’t smoke. I hardly ever drink. I’m a vegetarian. I haven’t been out to a club since 2004, and I’ve been with the same dude for five years, which is 4 years, 364 days, and 20 hours longer than pretty much all the relationships I had when you knew me best.
Right now you’re in Afghanistan again and if you weren’t, you’d be in Colorado, but what I really think you should do on your next leave, after you do all those silly things like say hello to your family and all of that, is come to Mississippi. Look, I made a little map for you.
It is only 21 hours away from Colorado. YOU COULD JUST POP ON BY. But let me just say, if you happened to be visiting family it would only be an 8-hour drive. And then you could meet Mr. Boyfriend and Sophiedog and BFFF Kelly and we could all go to New Orleans (except the dog; she is underage). This time you would have to promise not to get arrested on my birthday, though, SORREH.
I swear to play Words With Friends and/or other Facebook games if you’re bored out of your mind (although I do have a bad track record because, and I know this will surprise you, I am a terrible correspondent). Tell me what will entertain you most that is also legal, and I will send it to you, and in the meantime I will try to write things that make you laugh. Like this: I have been listening to British boy bands and eating strawberries for like three days straight. It’s a sickness.
ANYWAY I SUPER REALLY REALLY MISS YOU FOR REAL,
Melissa
17 May 2012 5 Comments
in HAI GURL HAI, School, Sophie Lou, Whining
On Saturday, while I was taking a nap because Sophie woke me up at 6 and I was ~le tired, I also graduated. I decided not to go to commencement. Many factors went into that decision, most of which came down to laziness. But my family wouldn’t have been able to go, and anyway I want to save all my graduation clothing humiliation for the day when I have to wear the Henry VIII PhD pillow hat.
I just know I’m going to accidentally cut a wife’s head off and then I will never get a job.
We went for a walk on campus with the dog after most of the graduation crowd had left, and I took pictures. Mr. B made fun of me for getting sentimental, but I’m not– I just realized I’ve gone to school here for six years and never paid much attention to the campus before. Like this eagle arrow thing.
I never even noticed it before, and I’ve walked past it like twenty times. (Sophie was scared of it and ran away)
So my fellow classmates graduated (congratulations to Derek, Pauline, Caroline, and Caroline!), all the grades are in except one, but that professor is always late and will probably give me a B again for my trouble (you know who you are, GPA-ruiner >:C ), and Mr. B and I are pre-PhD candidates who are very dignified and scholarly.
HELLO STUDENTS I AM YOUR PROFESSOR AND TODAY WE ARE GOING TO TALK ABOUT THE SERIOUS THINGS.
Up next: fly down to Hattiesburg, Mississippi, to pick out an apartment close to the campus but not too close because we hate people. Also it should take dogs, have AC and laundry facilities, be on the first floor, and cost under $600 a month. Unrelated, I would also like world peace and chocolate cake that appears when I snap my fingers.
In the meantime, things that are awesome:
★ My brother Brian is home from Afghanistan. Almost absolutely for good this time.
★ Another brother, Alex, is leaving for boot camp on the 22nd. He’s been trying to do this for over 2 years and has had to struggle a huge amount to get there, and I’m really proud of him. He’s going to be a fabulous Navy person and have tons of fun (once boot camp is over).
★ I don’t want to leave out the third brother, Brad, who made me proud by snowboarding in Japan and giving himself a concussion. If you are going to have a concussion, snowboarding in Japan is definitely the most awesome place to do it.
★ It turns out the Mayans actually knew how to count past 2012.
★ BFFF Kelly is a character in Guild Wars 2! Kelly, who as you may know walked across America last year, is a big Guild Wars fan, and her walk was Guild Wars-inspired. After she finished, she and her mother, also a big fan, drove to the place where all the Guild Wars happen and got to play with the beta version of Guild Wars 2. While she was there, they asked her if she and Anna would like to be characters in the game!
★ My new hero, badass of the week Julie D’Aubigny, “a 17th-century bisexual French opera singer and fencing master who killed or wounded at least ten men in life-or-death duels, performed nightly shows on the biggest and most highly-respected opera stage in the world, and once took the Holy Orders just so that she could sneak into a convent and bang a nun.” Also quoted as being, “Beautiful, valiant, generous, and supremely unchaste,” which I would like in my obituary please.
All right, I have to go make up with my dog. She’s really mad at me because I took her to the groomer’s today. She hates the groomer’s so so so so so so so so much that she will not even walk on that side of the road, no matter how close we are to the groomer’s. She just knows. First she dug her heels in so hard that her harness actually slid off the top of her head, then she just decided NOPE DONE and flopped over. So I pretended we were just going for a walk, lalala, no nail-cutting here, and we walked on the other side of the road, and then when we were across from the groomer’s I picked her up and carried her inside. But I think she’s actually won this battle, because since she got home she’s peed on pretty much everything including my bed, and now she refuses to even look at me.
She will pee on everything you love.
Hi (no, don’t talk to me, I’m hiding)
08 May 2012 6 Comments
in HAI GURL HAI, Living the Dream, Mr. B, School, Sophie Lou
I am hiding from my thesis.
That is why I’m writing a blog entry when I haven’t even been to this blog in like six months.
Here has been the process of writing a thesis:
1. Sometime during the semester before you graduate, write a proposal to suggest you might someday write a thing. List at least 20 books in your bibliography that you don’t plan to read because you have no idea what you’re actually going to write about yet. Find 3 professors willing to pretend they’re interested in reading 60+ pages of your semi-organized brain poop.
2. Halfway through your final semester, finish writing your incoherent mess at 7am on the date your thesis director said was the absolute last final deadline seriously you need to start turning your shit in now okay. Be grateful he wants it in electronic form so it won’t show tears, dog drool, wine, or cookie crumbs.
3. After you’ve read through his suggestions, cringing because you’ve turned in arguably the worst work of your entire life (and that’s saying something), fix the most egregious problems and send it onto your other readers.
4. Fall onto the bed and dramatically throw your arm over your eyes, bellowing “WHY. WHYYYY” when one of your readers asks for clarification and maybe some actual citations somewhere.
5. Spend an entire day ignoring the ominous folders full of your readers’ thesis suggestions because you can’t stand to look at your own wretched writing for another second. Hope these readers still respect you as an academic. Acknowledge they probably never did.
6. The week before graduation, finally fix the slightly less egregious errors. Forget you have to write an abstract and a table of contents until exactly the moment you think you’re done.
7. Send it off to the head of the graduate program. Graduate with the uncomfortable feeling someone’s going to take it back because your thesis isn’t done. Side-eye your diploma. It’s not real anyway.
8. On 25% or 100% cotton paper (but no percentage in between), print three copies of the thesis you never want to ever see again ever unless it’s on fire and you’re the one holding the match. Take it to the department secretary and pray it won’t come back to haunt you.
As you can see, I’m on step 5. Therefore, let’s have some pictures of my dog, who also doesn’t respect me as an academic but sometimes respects me as a leash-holder.
Mr. B and I are preparing to move to Mississippi, so that is another good way to distract myself. We’re hiring movers because we nearly killed ourselves carrying 70 boxes of books up and down our stairs, but when the moving people came in to give us an estimate, we discovered that we will be storing most of those books with Mr. B’s brother because I am not giving some muscley stoners a jillion dollars to carry them for me. We had friends over the other day and maniacally attempted to shove our stuff into their arms as they left. They ran off into the night before we could beg them to carry out the extra table and Mr. B’s “flat screen” that is not even remotely flat and weighs more than a Clydesdale.
↑ NOT FLAT
Other methods of distraction:
★ This guy is live-blogging World War I, 100 years after the fact. Obviously we’re not quite up to August 4th, 2014 yet, but he explains the sequence of events that led up to it and, for the first time, I finally understand why some Archduke getting assassinated in Serbia made everybody go batshit crazy and start killing each other.
★ We all know Cracked.com is like…well, crack, right? Today I discovered Alex Trebek was hot when he was younger. Also, did you know there’s a guy who keeps getting arrested because he shows up in locker rooms after games and demands piggyback rides? The trivia vortex has no bottom.
★ Rewatching Stephen Colbert’s interviews with Maurice Sendak from a few months back. This morning, we saw Stephen Colbert on whatever Regis & Kelly is called now that Regis is gone. Let me just point out that Mr. B is the one who watches the show. This morning he called me (I was hanging out on the couch, letting him sleep in) and told me to come in and watch the interview. I dragged Sophers up on the bed and we watched Stephen Colbert and some poor woman who dug baby socks out of a laundry basket and paired them together to earn $100 a pair (she balled 8 pairs, in case you were wondering).
★ XLR8R has new free music downloads all the time. I spend a lot of time there hoping I’ll find something I like. The last thing I downloaded was a song by Grimes, but I think that was like a month ago.
D: D: D: D: D: Please don’t make me go back to my thesis.
Letter to Myself Exactly Ten Years Ago
11 Sep 2011 4 Comments
Brockport, NY
September 11, 2011
5:00 am
Hey, asshole.
I know, you just woke up and you only have an hour to shower, get dressed, and be at work, and you want to get in at least three cigarettes and a cup of coffee before you go. But just listen to me for a second, okay, because I have to tell you something kind of important. You’re thinking today’s going to be really boring. You’re in forecaster training and that means spending most of the day reading notebooks full of scientific crap about radars and old climatology data. The entire Eastern US is under a high pressure system and the weather’s beautiful, so you won’t even have anything interesting to talk about at the morning briefing.
In another universe, today is exactly like all the previous days. You go to work at the weather station, you try not to fall asleep, you gossip with Brooke when she comes in to relieve you at 1:30. In a few weeks you’ll be twenty, and maybe you’ll celebrate in New Orleans because your birthday falls on a holiday. Your friends won’t be in Afghanistan and you won’t be left behind because your security clearance is messed up. You won’t be lonely and start dating that guy. You’ll get orders to Germany and won’t be sent to Kuwait instead. You won’t invade Iraq and you’ll spend your twenty-first year happy and drunk on German beer instead of in the desert. You won’t get married to that guy. In this universe, everyone knows George W. Bush is an incompetent idiot. Your cousin won’t go to Iraq and neither will your brother or a hundred thousand others. In this universe, bureaucracy will work the way it’s supposed to, and security at Logan Airport will detain nineteen men carrying weapons before they board their planes. Everyone who works at the World Trade Center and the Pentagon will go to work and go home again and all of you will think what a boring, nice day it was. You’ll hear a report on the news while you’re eating dinner about some guys who were arrested in Boston, but you won’t pay attention because it won’t have anything to do with you.
I think about that alternate universe a lot actually, when I’m going over how I’d revise my life to avoid anything embarrassing or irrational or matrimonial. I think about how I could change that day, the one you’re waking up to, and all the days after. We both know you’re not very good at this military thing. You’re all right at meteorology, but you suck at everything else. I mean, you joined the Air Force so you wouldn’t have to be in the Army, and here you are stuck in a combat unit on an Army post. You have to sift through dusty Reagan-era equipment in a warehouse, for god’s sake. You have to drive a Humvee. It’s not right. Everybody knows you hate it, everybody knows you’re a slacker and kind of a whiner, and you don’t care because you’ll be damned if you salute anyone and you’ll be damned if you do any more work than you have to for this stupid, pointless job.
But today– in exactly two hours and forty-six minutes, in fact– it’s all going to change. Today your morning weather briefing will start late. It’s Tuesday, which means no PT, so the briefing starts at 7:00. But today, for some reason you will never discover, the briefing will start at 7:30, and you’ll all be standing in the briefing room when it happens. You’ll stare off into space while the rest of your coworkers discuss what they’ll be doing for the rest of the day, and Mr. Ellison, the civilian forecaster, will say, “Hey, someone crashed a plane into a building,” and you’ll all shake your heads over how dumb that pilot is, because it’s sky clear and 7 outside. Everyone will go back to work– except for you, of course. You’ll watch the news. You’ll go back to the station chief’s office and say, “Sergeant Nelson, the Pentagon’s on fire.” You’ll call everyone in the unit until the networks overload. You’ll be stuck on Fort Campbell until 7 that evening and you’ll go home exhausted and you and your roommate will eat cereal and listen to your parents’ voices on your answering machine, and the two of you will sit in front of the television and watch and watch and watch until he says, “This is unhealthy, let’s turn it off,” and then you’ll watch for another four hours after that.
Tomorrow you have to start preparing to go to war, but let’s not focus on that. Let’s talk about today. Today, right now, with you sitting here on your futon in your blue and yellow flowered Martha Stewart sheets (300-thread count), rubbing sleep out of your eyes and wishing you’d done laundry because you don’t have any clean uniforms and you’re going to have to wear your blues. I want you to appreciate these last few hours, but I know you won’t. Normally I’d tell you to quit smoking, but not today; today I want you to enjoy that cigarette and sing really loud while you’re driving to work. I want you to love your life and how easy you have it. You’re stupid and selfish and you make awful decisions, but that’s almost okay because you’re nineteen and nothing bad has ever happened to anybody you know. In just a couple of hours you and the rest of the world are going to watch three thousand people die, right there in front of you. I want you to linger here in the remaining minutes of being a dumbass kid, before you have to learn how humans can make each other suffer.
All right. Go take a shower. Stand under the hot water too long. Forget your airfield badge on your way out the door. Stay stupid, please.
-M.
PS- But seriously, stop smoking. And don’t date that guy. And learn how to drive your car, you’re completely wearing out the transmission.
How James Franco Destroyed Humanity: Rise of the Planet of the Apes
09 Aug 2011 Leave a Comment
Above: James Franco, destroyer of worlds, and some random extra.
Mr. B asked me if I wanted to go see Rise of the Planet of the Apes on Friday, and I said yes mainly because I was having a craving for movie popcorn. I read a negative review over at Television Without Pity, but I always forget that TWoP and I have divergent opinions on lots of things. Like everything. Anyway, I was convinced I was going to alternately be bored out of my mind and cry at the animal cruelty, but neither of those things happened.
Well, that’s not quite true. I was bored whenever James Franco was talking. Or John Lithgow. Or generic evil head of the corporation. Or generic supportive veterinarian girlfriend with four lines. Or generic angry neighbor. I paid attention to generic sadistic animal-hating ape sanctuary worker guy, but only because he was played by Tom Felton, and Draco Malfoy tasering apes gave me cognitive dissonance. The people-actors in this movie are easily ignored and dismissed, because Caesar the ape’s journey is the one you want to watch.
I’ve spent most of this summer’s movie time waiting for movies to be over with. Thor was very pretty and fluffy and loud and dull. Super 8 was pure nostalgia. Captain America was exactly what it advertised itself being, no more and no less. Cowboys & Aliens was the same– the ads said “Indiana Jones and James Bond are going to fight some motherfucking aliens in the old West, and Olivia Wilde will wear skimpy cotton clothes,” and so they did. There were no surprises, and nothing anybody hadn’t seen before.
I figured this Apes prequel was going to be more of the same, but it wasn’t. I felt like I was watching a really well-documented revolution, and at the same time it was a story of the birth of language and reason and logic. Something I found completely fascinating in my linguistic classes is that adult chimps and human infants have similar placement of the larynx, which prevents speech. In human infants it’s a sort of coping mechanism to prevent choking, but eventually the innate need to speak arises and the larynx actually shifts to accommodate speech. In at least one case, a baby chimp has been taught to say simple words like mama and papa, but they do best with sign language for obvious reasons. But it’s not outside the realm of possibility for chimps to evolve into speaking animals at some point, which Caesar does. The movie didn’t go too over the top with it, either; you’re waiting for it, waiting for him to say something because you know it’s coming, and when he finally does it’s just NO– a beautiful protest. He says something a little later, too, but it’s very halting and even realistic within the confines of this particular world. Very subtle work, because with most movies Caesar would have been speaking in full sentences by the midway point and have a job as a CEO by the end or something.
Caesar is also not a victim. I expected to be very, very upset at the caging of the apes, and I was, but it wasn’t done to tug at your heartstrings too much. It was presented very matter-of-factly, and when the revolution begins, you both want it to happen and you get chills because it’s happening. The revolution isn’t a slaughter; it’s a military coup, and largely peaceful on the apes’ part. Caesar doesn’t want bloodshed, but he knows it’s probably going to happen. I was completely riveted by his story from beginning to end. I’d like to say the movie would have been perfect if Caesar’s human “family” had been taken out of the equation, but it really couldn’t have worked that way. If he’d just been raised in a lab, no matter how intelligent he was, he’d never have understood social relationships. But it really is hard to look at the humans in this movie and have any sympathy for what we know will happen to them. They’re not all one-dimensionally evil, of course, but they’ve sown the seeds of their own destruction.
By keeping James Franco alive and out of jail.
Way to fucking go, humanity.
A Post-Mary Sue Mary Sue in an Anti-Sue World
08 Aug 2011 9 Comments
Note: this is an essay I wrote for a YA fiction class. We read Tithe, by Holly Black, and I hated it and loathed the main character so much I knew I had to write my final paper on her. Unfortunately, it started off as a scathing rant and ended up with me defending both the author and the character. Fuuuuu-
Mary Sue has no singular origin. Just as modern medicine has helped identify illnesses that previously went unnamed throughout history, the Mary Sue character, generally considered a recent phenomenon, can be traced through literary history. The Mary Sue, who can be male but is largely identified with female characters, is the strongest, bravest, cleverest character. She is more beautiful than any other woman in the land, and has striking features not often found in nature, such as purple eyes combined with red hair. Men would– and frequently do– die for her. Whatever skill another character may possess, she does it better. Terrible circumstances usually befall her (most often because others are so jealous of her perfection), but she is always able to rise above them. Her flaws are advantages in disguise—perhaps she has a bad temper, but it is only roused by injustice and cowardice; she may be too sensitive, but only because she is so empathetic that she feels the world’s pain.
The Mary Sue archetype was first isolated and named in the world of Star Trek fan-fiction. The show’s near-cancellation in 1967 gave rise to a letter-writing campaign, which soon provided a way for fans to communicate with each other and pass on their own written or drawn versions of the show’s stories. Letters turned into fan-created magazines and newsletters, which turned to chat groups when the internet first became available. Now there are thousands of websites dedicated to fan interpretations of various media, also known as “transformative works” by academics seeking to legitimize the field. Lieutenant Mary Sue came into being in 1974, when Paula Smith wrote a parody of the typical Star Trek fan-fiction called “A Trekkie’s Tale.” At fifteen-and-a-half years old, Mary Sue is the youngest Lieutenant in the fleet. She is half-Vulcan, Captain Kirk falls in love with her, and when the main characters are kidnapped, she rescues them with a hairpin and mans the ship when the others are sick. The story, however, ends tragically:
“…the disease finally got to her and she fell fatally ill. In the sick bay as she breathed her last, she was surrounded by Captain Kirk, Mr. Spock, Dr. McCoy and Mr. Scott all weeping unashamedly at the loss of her beautiful youth and youthful beauty, intelligence and all around niceness. Even to this day her birthday is a national holiday aboard the Enterprise.” (Enterprising Women, 94-95)
After Smith’s parody, this archetype was referred to as a Mary Sue, and eventually just a Sue, and although the term is most often used within fannish contexts, published media is sometimes examined for traces of Sue disease as well. Is Elizabeth Bennet of Pride & Prejudice a Mary Sue? She is beautiful and feisty, and captures the heart of a handsome, rich man who disapproves of everyone and everything. What about Mary Magdalene? Jesus defies his apostles to keep her around, and only she is allowed to take care of him. These characters, however, are part of a canon with huge literary merit, and that saves them from the Sue label. Characters who might otherwise be considered indulgent or stereotypical are credited with more complexity.
Because Mary Sue is usually considered an author’s idealized self-insert, authors who write Mary Sues are considered sloppy at best and ridiculous at worst. Anupam Chander and Mudhavi Sunder say Mary Sues are “[d]erided as an exercise in narcissism” in their article “Everyone’s a Superhero: a Cultural Theory of Mary Sue Fanfiction as Fair Use” (California Law Review, 597), an accusation which appears almost solely when the author and character are female. It is likely not a coincidence that the scoffing at the idealized authorial self-insert began with female-driven fiction and female characters—moreover, female characters who are overtly successful. Occasionally there are male counterparts, called Marty Stus or Gary Stus. The most notorious in the fandom world is Wesley Crusher, from Star Trek: the Next Generation. The creation of Eugene Wesley Roddenberry, Wesley is, of course, a prodigy in all the sciences, and in music. According to David Gardner’s essay, “Mary Sue Gives Birth, Baby Undergoes Sex Change,” Wesley “saves the Enterprise from destruction more than a dozen times…twice in the first five episode.” Wesley Crusher is not alone in his Gary Stu-ness; if examined, most male protagonists might be considered Gary Stus as well. Who are Holden Caulfield and Buddy Glass but idealized forms of JD Salinger’s ego? What, in point of fact, is Captain James T. Kirk but a representation of total ID?
So, after this (understandably lengthy) introduction to the Mary Sue/Gary Stu trope, the question remains: how can we analyze a character after the Mary Sue phenomenon has already been identified? In the character of Kaye Fierch, from Holly Black’s Tithe, we can see the female representation of the post-Mary Sue “Sue” character. Black published Tithe in 2002, well after Paula Smith’s essay on the Mary Sue and its widespread use as a derogatory term for perfect female characters, and Black is certainly involved in online fandoms, as she is friends with (and reportedly helped publish) infamous fan-fiction-writer-turned-published-author Cassandra Clare (known as Cassandra Claire online). It is unlikely Black is unfamiliar with Sues, and yet where do we begin with Kaye Fierch? One of the first scenes in Tithe has Kaye talking about fairy friends who appear only to her. Already this is verging on Sue territory, but is pretty typical of fantasy novels, so perhaps we could overlook it if it were not immediately followed by her friend Janet scolding her because “guys don’t like weird” (99, Kindle edition). Kaye cares not for what men think, because she is special. Too bad for Janet, who does care, because Janet’s boyfriend wants Kaye. Like most men, he simply cannot help himself around Kaye, who is not only half-Japanese (exotic!) but blonde. Not content to point out Kaye’s exoticness once when fifty times will suffice, Black writes Janet saying, “Do you know how many girls would die to be Asian and blond?” (569).
However, her looks are not all that is special about Kaye Fierch, for she can also move things with her mind. She saves a faerie and earns three wishes from him, and is clever enough to use them to ask the faerie’s full name. Soon she realizes that not only can she see faeries, she is herself a faerie changeling, meaning she not only has your average faerie attributes, like green skin and wings (which, of course, she can hide when she wants to, because they are ugly), but can control kelpies, and incidentally is capable of bewitching all men, mortal or faerie. She helps dethrone the Queen of the Seelie Court, and, of course, is now the lover of the King of the Seelie Court. Is there anything Kaye Fierch cannot do? Are there ideal traits she does not possess? Does she have faults? She is beautiful, “exotic,” bewitching, likes non-mainstream music (as represented by the author, whose musical taste seems to be stuck in 1992), loves to read and has “read more books than most girls her age” although she does not attend school (1822), and can travel back and forth between the real world and the faerie world. Her problems are external—she must be used as a pawn in a faerie war—and she overcomes them through her own bravery and cleverness and, of course, through the love of a handsome man. Kaye Fierch is an irredeemable Sue.
The criteria thus satisfied, we have to ask the post-Mary Sue question: should Tithe be dismissed simply because its main character is the embodiment of perfection? As mentioned before, characters who have no flaws, or whose only flaws are actually positive characteristics, appear in fiction all the time, especially in male-oriented fiction with male protagonists. Looking at Harry Potter, for example, Harry has many attributes that characterize a Gary Stu. He is unusual-looking, suffers during his childhood and is generally persecuted by those who are either jealous of his fame or want to kill him because he is special, and is gifted in both magic and sports. Girls throw themselves at him, and not only does he ultimately best all his obstacles, he winds up with arguably the most beautiful girl in the series. Harry, however, is rarely called a Sue character. He is part of a respected, Campbell-hero tradition. If Harry were female, however, he would certainly be considered a Mary Sue (he has green eyes! A famous scar! He is the youngest and best Seeker who ever existed! He is the only person who has ever survived the Death Curse!), and JK Rowling would be accused of self-insertion. Perhaps, then, rather than deriding Holly Black and Tithe because the main character is a Sue, we could congratulate her for daring to make her main character as unique and perfect as similar male protagonists, in the face of almost certainly knowing she and her character would be mocked. Tithe has many other problems (bland, unconvincing world-building and derivative narrative, unrealistic actions and reactions from all the characters…I could go on, but it feels cruel), but strictly focusing on the main character, she is no better or worse than her male counterparts.
When you accuse a female author of wanting to write herself, only better, you’re essentially saying this: “There’s no way a female character can be this good at everything. Or maybe she’s allowed to be good at everything, if she’s not conventionally attractive. Or maybe she could be beautiful, too, as long as there’s not a romantic side story. Romance is for silly little girls and de-legitimizes adventure stories because it’s clear the author and the readers just want to live vicariously through the young, beautiful, adventurous character, and that’s not what literature is for.” Hate on all authors who utilize the ancient art of self-insert, or hate on none; criticize Black for writing what is, in the end, a pretty terrible book, but don’t criticize female authors for writing idealized female characters. It’s like when people say “I don’t like most girls,” because they think it makes them look good in comparison. It doesn’t. We can do better than that.











